Thinspo!!!

Here is some inspiration to help me stay on track! please note I have got there all off other people blogs with thinspo, they are not mine!

Will I Ever Be skinny??!

I'm starting to think that I am just destined to be ugly & fat!!  I binged again today! kinda not my fault - my dad made me eat supper and then brought out so many chocolaty things!! so I threw back up most that I could. but I hear 1/3 always stays no matter how much you try so i must have had about 2000+ calories today now :( I had been feeling very shit from not eating, now I feel fine but shit in mind cuz I am just so fat - I still weigh 59.5Kg.
I just must weigh 50Kg or less! MUST!!! I found a pic of a skinny girl who looks just about how i used to when I was 50Kg . Here it is, she has a lil tummy at the very bottom of her hips and okay sized boobs,and I also had sticking out ribs.

So this is my aim - or skinnier. I might soon post pictures of my progress, so you can see, but I will have to make sure no one can see its me. I really hope another 10Kg will get me back to this! I sooo desperately wanna be thin!!!
xX Ana-Mia Xx

Back On Track

Yesterday I only ate 1 fig role and a small but of a flapjack which my friend gave me. I spent most the day with him, and he also brought me my maths book that I needed. :O =D I was not liking college because no one was inviting me to things outside college and I didn't feel anyone liked me so that cheered me up a lot. Today is the first official day of summer holidays! I haven't eaten anything yet and don't intend to today. I just weighed myself - 59.5Kg. Yesterday I wasn't happy because I weighed 60.8Kg still, I was starting think I was never going to make it below 60Kg but now I am and I really hope I can keep losing weight at this speed or faster. If I do I will reach my goal of weighing less at camp this year than I did 2 years ago. I'm also worried that I will look fatter anyway as so far I haven't noticed much of a difference size wise. and since about 2 months ago when I started weighing myself again - I weighed 144lbs (65Kg) so thats -5Kg and I don't see a difference! and I haven't managed to squeeze back down a size yet! I want my UK size 8's to be very baggy again and my UK size 6's to also be loose again like they were. I am going to have to get changed (well keeping underwear on) in front of whoever my roommates are for the week, I don't want them to see how fat I am. We also exchanged clothes last year and I don't want to be the big one who doesn't fit anyone else's clothes.
xX Ana-Mia Xx

My Loving, but Interfering Boyfriend! ♥

Today my boyfriend forced me to eat... as usual! He has made me promise to at least eat something everyday, and since he is my boyfriend he likes me as the fat blob (well he says I'm skinny) I am, I shall do so. I have decided on eating 100 cals a day - but doing as much exercise as possible. his should still get me down to about 115lbs  (just 5lbs over my goal) by Christian camp. I think that is okay =] I will just have to lose the other 5 lbs wile there. and then be at 105lbs by september, and 95lbs (45kg) by the end of october. =D I think I will stop there and just go onto a 1000 calorie diet for the rest of my life, which should keep me at my desired weight. I think I will make my daily diet out of fruit - 1 piece of fruit a day until november 1st, then a high protein diet and I shall work out a lot to tone so by my 18th I will have my perfect body! I will be ready to party!!! =D

oh I weighed in today at 60.8 =/ I blame my boyfriend for making me eat. Oh well its only because he cares.

xX Ana-Mia Xx

Becoming Vegan & on a Low-Carb Diet

I have decided I want to become vegan! I want to because since I realised I gained weight I have been trying to cut out meat and full fat dairy products, but often I have no excuse to turn them down. (I also want to cut out carbs) Once everyone knows/thinks I'm vegan I will be able to eat a diet of fruit & veg and have no one question me, in fact a lot of people will help me stay vegan. I have decided all I have to do is seem very worried about the more environmental things and the treatment of animals. Which for my family the animal treatment may be harder to convince them of as for quite a long time in Ireland I lived on surrounded by farms, and saw how some of the animals lived a luxury life until death. BUT I hope that I can convince them I am very worried about the animals that are not as lucky as those Irish ones, the ones on battery farms etc. Which is what we tend to eat a lot of here. and the way some cows  constantly have blisters on their udders and cuts fro the machinery used to milk them, and how they are milked much more then they should be. If anyone can help me sound more convincing please comment! Especially if you are vegan yourself.
I also want to eat low-carbs. this is because the I know that glucose used to fuil the body comes from carbs, and if their are no carbs the body used fat instead, fueling itself off ketones. On my vegan diet I will be not eating many fats so if I eat no carbs my body will have to use the fat I desperately want to get rid of as fuel! Which is perfect, and I will still be getting all the vitamins I need from my veg & fruit.
xX Ana-Mia Xx

2 Stone - 45 Days

I have decided on a new earlier goal, the first big step. I want to be below the weight I was 2 years ago on Camp, this year when I go to Camp. I think I was 7stone 13 (111lbs or 50Kg) back then, and now I weigh 9st9 (135lb or 61Kg) that is just under 2stone to lose. Christian camp is 45 days away so my aim is to lose 2lbs every 3 days. so according to this http://calendarscripts.info/weight-loss-calculator.html I can eat about 150 cals a day and achieve that. but I am worried about my body going into starvation mode which basically means my metabolism slows down and I will have to eat nothing, luckily this can be counteracted by changing my daily calorie intake. I have decided to exercise at least an extra 150 calories a day than my normal routine, by going to the gym or going for cycles. I will vary my calorie intake over the 3 days - this is meant to keep the metabolism guessing so it cant work out if I'm starving or not. I suppose its a bit like the ABC and 2-4-6-8 pro-ana diets. I will be having: Day 1 - 0 Calories; Day 2 -  100 Calories; Day 3 - 800 calories. This with the exercise averages out at an intake of 150 calories a day. I will then be monitoring my weight every day but very closely every 3 days to check I'm still losing the 2lbs (0.9kg) I need to be losing. If I can stick to this I will probably update you every 3 days but to start with still very often as I get into the diet.
xX Ana-Mia Xx

Failed Start: Time For a New Idea.

I started the day by eating a cheese and broccoli quiche, which I then purged. I then ate a role with marmite and butter, and then later ate some chicken rice & salad. I did basically no exercise.
I have decided to try self hypnosis, I will put myself into a calm state then tell myself things I think; well I  don't but want to think. I will post later what I do and what things I tell myself.
xX Ana-Mia Xx

The Start

I don't feel very good this morning. Since around 5pm on friday I have been eating way too much and have drunk a lot of cider and beer. You see I had been on a diet for about 5 days prior, it was an eat nothing, exercise at least 150 calories off, but on friday I was with friends and they got me to eat probably about 2500 cals of chocolate and stuff. =( Then yesterday a friend came round, and my sister was being nice so we had Krispy Kream donuts, and then bread and cream cheese. I then went to a party where I got completely drunk and probably ate the chocolate too, so in all that day probably about 3500 calories if not more. and 3500 cals is 1 lb! =(

I am now going to get back on track on my diet - I had gone from 64kg down to 61kg in the first 4 days of my diet. I just weighed myself and I am back up to 61.5kg! When really if my weight loss had stayed constant I should have lost a couple of Kg and would now be happily below 60kg today. Anyway enough of the negatives I am now going to stay on track for the rest of the summer. I shall stick to my diet and blogging will hopefully keep me on track as I wont want to post that I failed again. I hope to keep you updated very regularly. =]

xX Ana-Mia Xx

Introducing me

hello everyone, this is my first time writing a blog. I am writing this because it will hopefully help keep me on track with my weight loss.
I am about 5'2" or 5'3" maybe 5'4", which is short in my opinion. I aim to weigh about 45kg by the end of the summer. My goal weight of 45kg comes from before when I weighed 50kg and everyone thought I was very very slim. Although I thought I had two problem spots - the very top of the inside of my thighs and the tiny spot on the bottom of my tummy. I know that going to the gym and toning them at that weight would fix it once at 50kg. I want to go 5kg lower than that at least, before adding more protein to my diet and toning the muscles to pull it all in; it will alow for the small weight gain when I start to eat more.
I am pro ana because I went from chubby child to skinny kid very quickly a few years ago by not eating, it worked so well. It is also because I have no patience, and starving is the fastest way to lose weight.
My diet will be: exercise off at least 150 calories extra at the gym every day, and then eat nothing. If I eat it will be a vegetable followed by more exercise to get rid of those calories. Whenever I have extra energy I will do more exercise until the energy is gone.
I have calculated that this will have me at my weight loss goal on time. Please follow me on my journey and support me. =)
xX Ana-Mia Xx