Random Questions

Me
Age: 17
Height: 5’2/5'3
Weight: 129lbs
Dress Size: ??
Goal Weight: 98lbs
Favorite Diet Food: cucumber or lettuce
Favorite Binge Food: chocolate :/
Favorite Exercise: rowing or biking
Where Do You Slip Up: “just one... I crave it so much... oh dear i binged again”

When Did It Start?
Hating your body: about age 4 or 5? then really badly by age 9.
Restricting/counting: age 9
Does Anyone Know:  kinda
Do You Want Help: NO!!!!!
How Many Calories Do You Consume a Day: ranging from 0-500 except when I binge :/
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror: a fat, bloated, pig with no control.
Are You In A Relationship: yes =)
Are You Depressed:  I think so
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide: yes twice. I even fail at that.
Ever Been To A Psychologist: yeah... ugghh

I AM 
[x] anorexic
[ ] ednos
[x] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[ ] thirsty
[x] drinking something - water!!!
[ ] under 100lbs
[x]starving yourself
[x] participating in a fast

PEOPLE  
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat 
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I WISH 
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself 
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE 
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE 
[x] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[/] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

FAMILY
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents
[x] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together. <--- my mum died about a year ago  but they are in spirit
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

RELATIONSHIPS
[ ] I’m single.
[x] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY 
[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

BAD TIMES 
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point.
[x] I shut others out
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying.
[x] I’ve lost weight.
[x] I’ve gained weight.
[x] My weight holds me back.
[x] Weight consumes me.
[ ] I’m at my thinnest.
[ ] I’m at my biggest.
[ ] I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back.
[x] My weight affects my mood.
[x] I weigh myself daily.
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me.
[ ] I thrive on compliments.
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size.
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry.
[x] I get depressed after I eat.
[x] I’ve skipped a meal.
[x] I’ve thrown food away.
[x] I’ve spit food out.
[x] I’ve fasted.
[ ] I’ve taken diet pills.
[] I’ve used laxatives.
[x] I’ve purged.

EXERCISE
[x] I exercise.
[ ] I exercise so I can eat.
[x] I work out secretly.
[x] I work out daily.
[x] I exercise to counteract eating.
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion.

I’VE DONE
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret.
[x] I have a diet blog.
[x] I look at thinspo.
[x] I collect thinspo.
[x] I’m doing this for me.
[ ] I’m doing this for someone.
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself