Summing up what happened

So when I stuck to the diet it did work, I got to just under 9 stone  (124lbs, 56kg) but hit a plateau and stopped losing weight then went back to eating normally, I stayed at that weight until a couple of years later... now I am back on the weight loss wagon and am writing a new blog to hopefully watch me shrink in weight again!

I'm such a failure

So I went off track AGAIN!!! And went back up to 61kg - that must be my current set point. But after a 2 day diet I'm down below 60kg again, but I'm so disappointed in myself because if I had just stuck at it or even just not spend weeks continuously bingeing I would be at least below 55kg probably below 50kg!!  I am just so silly. I'm back to dieting - only 200 calories a day. That means about a under a kg lost per week =( not good but still its something, but I will still be a very fat 55kg by my 18th if i stick to that. where as if i had stuck at my diet from september I would be in the phase of eat whatever i want by now and being as skinny as i want without gaining because i would have reset my set point.  Also not having my gym membership anymore means a lot slower weight loss. According to my records I got down to 123 a wile back!! I'm so stupid. I hate myself!!!

Binge

I was doing so well then I just started feeling so weak that I thought I have to have something so I had some milk in my tea, then I was tempted by the soup and thought well I can have half a portion and water it down. It would be a total of under 100cals all together. BUT then I felt very full after just  a few sips but I felt it waste full not to have it all so I had all my portion (very small) but felt stuffed. so I thought I'm going to have to throw up to get rid of this. I then decided I might as well binge and then throw up so I did but of course I won't have thrown up everything so now I'm sure I've had over 1000 Calories today. That stops any weight loss today! =(   BUT  I shall now fast for as long as possible!!

xX Ana-Mia Xx

I'm Back

So I went really off the rails and continuously ate chocolate. gained a tone of weight and ended up at over 61Kg.. so on tuesday I stopped eating, by the end of the day I was still 61.2Kg which s about 135lbs. this morning I got on the scales hoping they had changed over night. They had, in the wrong direction, but I persevered. Now I just weighed myself in at 123lbs!! I was like what this can't be right thats about 57kg. so I switched to kgs and low and behold it did say 57Kg! =D
so I now must change my lost of 0.2kg per day goal calender to fit my new weight.

My Mesurements

Neck: 12.5 in - 31cm
Arms: 12in -30cm
Chest: 37.5in - 95cm
Ribs: 31in - 78cm
Small Waist: 28.5in -72cm
Navel Waist: 31in - 78cm
Fat Tummy: 34in - 86cm
Hips: 35.5in - 90cm
Thighs: 21.3in -  54cm
Calves: 13.5in - 34cm

Rewarding Myself

Current weight: 57Kg - 125lbs - 8st13 - BMI 22.8

Goal weight: 40Kg -88lbs - 6st4 - BMI 16

Goal 1: 52Kg - 115lbs - 8st3 -BMI 20.8     week 3-4       Bleach Hair 

Goal 2: under 50Kg -110lbs - 7st12 - BMI 20     week 5       Dye over Bleach       Less than FRHQ!!

Goal 3: 46Kg - 101lbs - 7st3 - BMI 18.4     week 8       Dye eyebrows/eyelashes

Goal 4: 43Kg - 95lbs - 6st11 - BMI 17.2     week 10       BellyButton Pearcing

Final Goal: 40Kg - 88lbs - 6st4 - BMI 16     week 12-13       Look Perfect!!!

I'm Back and Still 57Kg =(

I have not been at home for more than about 10 nights all together since my last post. I have mostly been at my (now ex) boyfriends house, we are still on very good terms, we are very good friends. I stayed at his again the night before last as friends because I needed somewhere to stay. anyway while I was at his he has been feeding me loads!! I cannot believe I didn't gain 10Kg! when I got back I was surprised to see my weight was still the same so despite the massive disappointment that I still weight 57Kg I am actually happy because I didn't gain anything.
I have decided to go on a diet of 2000 calories a week:
Sunday - Nothing
Monday - Nothing
Tuesday - 700
Wednesday - Nothing
Thursday - Nothing
Friday - 1000
Saturday - 300
Considering my goal weight calorie intake is 1300 cals per day, I should lose about 0.8 Kg per week taking into account my slowed metabolism.
So I should reach my goal of 40Kg in about 22 weeks which will be February the 12th.
I should be 41Kg by my 18th =D and I should be 52Kg by the time it is as become habit - Halloween time. =)
Time to set my plan into motion!

xX Ana-Mia Xx